Emotional Roller Coasters

     Males generally aren't emotional beings. We try to pride ourselves on not crying during touching films, not being emotionally attached in relationships, and being hard-knocks when it comes to any emotional situation. So it's funny how for the past couple months life has sent me on an emotional roller coaster. Recently moving to Winston-Salem has been a struggle. I have too much time on my hands, applied to over 30 jobs, and still have not found employment. My emotions have ranged from happiness spending time with my wife and her family to dismal depression about not having a job to help support my wife and I. Throughout these many tough days I've learned one thing and perhaps that is what God has intended for me.

     What I have learned is trust. I have learned to put my trust wholly in God who in the end has entire control over my life and everything that happens in it. Romans 4:4-5 has comforted me more and more, "Now when a man works, his wages are not credited to him as a gift, but as an obligation. However, to the man who does not work but trusts God who justifies the wicked, his faith is credited as righteousness." This is the definition of my life right now, and I've just found out! I may be jobless, but my trust is in my God who knows the very hairs on my head. He will provide, He will not let me fall, and I will always trust Him.

Here's to trusting God for provision!